2016 was the year that changed me, but it wasn’t about me, it was about Him.
I found myself broken again, pieces of me shattered all over the ground for many different reasons. I was so unsure that God had a plan for me. It seemed I kept running into dead end after dead end with no hope I would find my way. Deep in my heart I knew better, and that’s why I continued to wait for God and His perfect plan. I was just so broken that God wasn’t doing things when I wanted them done. He wasn’t working on my timing, but on His.
I didn’t graduate college on time, I was dealing with insecurities from childhood, I thought I was gonna live the rest of my life alone. All the things I knew were a lie, but Satan kept beating me down with what he could.
Until one day in May of 2016 I had enough. I had nothing left to lose so I did what I was scared most to do, and that was let the world inside my heart. I tore every wall down and poured my heart into my first blog post titled, “A Single Man’s Prayer for a Virtuous Woman.”
It was day in and day out after that moment that God put it heavy on my heart to write. I poured everything out and let strangers into my heart. I was scared, but I knew God was telling me to share my story.
I wanted my brokenness to be a help to someone, because I didn’t want them to feel so alone like I did. I laid it all out, but not just the bad, I had so many good stories of how God blessed me that I needed to share. I wanted the world to know that no matter what I was going through God was there, and He was my strength when I thought I didn’t have any. He never left me.
I had more stories to share than I ever thought possible. So many stories poured out that I thought it would make more sense if they were all together, in some kind of order. I had no idea God planned for a book. I thought publishing a book of my testimony would be nearly impossible, but with a simple Google search what was once impossible became possible. On June 29, 2016, my first book “Safe Thus Far: My Testimony” was released.
If you would’ve asked me five years ago or even one year ago if I had plans to write a book, I would’ve laughed and told you no. But I didn’t know God was preparing my heart to do just that.
I was hoping that with the release of my book my story would help others, but little did I know God was healing me in the midst of it all. I started to see that God had a plan for me all along, and when I laid my baggage down I was finally free. I was free to see myself through the eyes of God again, and those bags that once weighed me down were no longer heavy.
I’ve met countless people along the way, people I never would’ve met had I not listened to what God was telling my heart. People who had given up on God, people who wanted to be more for God, people who had lost children to suicide, and people who just didn’t understand all saw the goodness of God through my testimony.
I’ll be forever thankful that God put it on my heart to share my story with the world. He is my best friend, my strength, and it’s only because of Him that I’ve made it Safe Thus Far.
Bigger Than I Had Ever Dreamed
If you truly pursue God with your whole heart, I believe you will find Him to be everything you’ve ever needed and so much more. He has plans for you that are much bigger than anything you’ve ever dreamed. Chase after Him to see all that He has in store! Who knows you may have a book inside of you too.
Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.